I’m not sure the title of this post is accurate. It has definitely been a strange year, especially the last couple months, but nothing that is really that far out of sync with what I’ve done my whole life. I am pretty surprised to still even be alive. I don’t mean from fracturing my skull, but just from the way I live. If you would have asked me 20 years ago if I was going to live another 20 years, I would have said probably not.
I’d say the same thing now. I hope I am wrong, like I was 20 years ago, but in worldly terms, it doesn’t really matter.
Not much good, at least so far, has come from whacking my head a couple months ago. One thing is I know how many true friends I have. That isn’t even counting the people I don’t know, but would like to. I know a bunch of people that really care for me, which is super important. I think I might have missed this without the injury. I know it now and appreciate it more.
A couple years ago I wrote a list of New Year’s resolutions. I guess it is just of list of things that I thought I should do to be more like who I’d like to be. The things on the list still need attention. At least from me. So I guess I’ll just repost it and hope that this next year I’ll be more mindful and attentive to accomplishing them. Here it is –
I’m not much into making resolutions. I try to live life without resolutions and try to solve issues and make decisions on a daily basis, thus no need for making promises to myself on the first day of the year. But, I’m going to try to come up with a list of things anyway, not necessarily promises, but things I’d like to address or do this year that I think will make my life more significant and happy.
1) Try not to be shallow or have preconceived notions about others.
2) Spend less time on a computer or looking at any screen for that matter.
3) Practice mindfulness: state of active, open attention on the present. I think this applies to above.
4) Race new races and travel to new places to race my bike, even though my results will suffer because of it.
5) Try to read more, books, not online.
6) Make a bucket list. (I doubt I’ll do this one, since I like I said above, I live my life in such a way that I cross things off the “imaginary” bucket list before I know I want to put them there.)
7) Ride my bike or walk more to do errands.
8) Address health issues even if it “interferes” with bike racing.
9) Listen to more live music.
10) Sleep more.
Have a safe New Year’s Eve and a Happy New Year!